dating me means dating my anxiety and my random spouts of depression it means dating my panic attacks at 11pm or 2 am or 5am or anytime of the day for that matter it means dating my mood swings where i get really upset over everything about me and all my insecurities and how i’m not good enough because i’m never good enough
Even though I don’t remember writing that last post, it doesn’t mean it’s not the truth
I don’t want to be sad.
My boyfriend is perfect
I wish he could see that
But that doesn’t mean I can’t be sad
I’m sorry, but I guess I can’t change that fast
You are all I want but that doesn’t mean everything will suddenly be perfect. I’m sorry
I love you
please don’t hate me
Any of you
im in one of those periods in my life where i cant focus on anything i cant finish an assignment i cant listen to one song for more than 5 seconds i cant sit through a tv show episode i cant finish a book i cant write a story
all i can do is stare blankly at the wall and wish i had something to do but everything i could do or want to do is just supremely unsatisfying
I thought maybe I could write you a poem
But I’m not really a poet.
Or maybe I could paint you a masterpiece
But I’m not really an artist.
Or maybe I could compose a song for you
But I’m not really a musician.
All I can hope for is that you will appreciate my effort
And that you will still like me even though I’m talentless.
You must know I’m really trying
To give you everything you deserve.